Man. It has been a crazy last 10 days! Sometimes life turns you upside down, shakes you real good, then puts ya back down and takes your pulse. Just to make sure that your heart is still beating. From one day to the next, you may think you have it all planned out, that you know exactly what is going to happen, then, BAM! Life does a U-Turn on ya, takes a detour, or just slams on it's brakes. The last week of my life is a perfect example of this.
Let's start with Saturday, September 18th, shall we? Well, as those of you who read my BLOG on the regular know, I was scheduled to play at a fabulous party called "Gaycation" in Portland. It was a WONDERFUL time, best Portland gig trip EVER (though I love my Bad Scene boys, and have had some really close seconds with them!). Lots of family and friends in effect at the party (thanks for coming out peeps - you know who you are)! Mr. Charming and DJ Snowtiger, who throw this particular party, were not only awesome in their DJ sets, but also in their hospitality (Thanks Ladies)! I had THE BEST time dropping 2 45 minute DJ sets, and one 15 minute live P.A. with some of my new solo material (being released SOON right here on this BLOG)! The crowd was so into it! I left that gig high on life! Thanks Portland Queers, Gaycation crew, and all family and friends in attendance! LOVE YOU ALL - and hope to see you again soon! Here's a great pic from
Ginger Girl Photography from that night:

The next morning, Sunday, September 19th, we woke up a little rough around the edges. We packed our bags, got back in the car, and started the trek back north. It seemed like the longest drive home from Portland ever. We were exhausted when we got home and after about an hour of staring blankly at the TV, we decided to turn in early. Which, it's a good thing we did, because....
At 5:00AM, Monday September 20th, my mother called. My 90 year old grandmother, had finally passed. This news wasn't exactly shocking. I had been prepared for it. Didn't make it any easier. The next couple days were a haze of phonecalls with family, arranging my schedule so that I could attend the funeral, mulling over memories, and appreciating the here and now that I have in my life.
On Thursday, September 23rd, my little sister and I got in the car and drove down to Tumwater for my grandmother's funeral. We were sad (of course), and nervous. We didn't know what to expect. We have been estranged from most of our extended family for quite some time. I will spare you the details, but like with a lot of families, there had been hurt feelings and such, which had just piled up over time. It had been easier to just not deal with it. Now we were forced to. At least for the day. Would it be civil? Would it be terrible? Would there be violence? What was going to happen?!?!
We arrived at the service and were immediately greeted by family. There were hugs and tears, hand squeezes, sobbing, shared memories, eulogies. It was not at all what we expected. Somehow, the passing of grandma had a very sobbering effect on everyone involved. Instead of polarizing everyone even more, it brought everyone together. I personally was embraced by people I never thought my gay-ass would ever even see again. The whole experience has left me reeling in some respects. It has definitely sparked a change in my attitude toward my extended family, and cemented some things I have already come to know about conflict, and life being too short.
On Friday, September 24th,
Sammy LaForge, who is the master producer behind the release of my upcoming E.P., hosted a listening party for a few folks. Special thanks to Sammy LaForge and Drew Rodriguez for organizing the lovely little soiree. Thanks also to my life partner, Amy LaBree Ferrell, as well as: Dustin Curtis,
JT O'Neil,
Lisa Dank, Tony Burns and DJ Skiddle for attending and offering your unabashed feedback! It was great to share this work with a few people I appreciate and respect, and get some initial reactions - both positive and constructive. This new solo project has been an amazing journey. It marries my experience, influences, humor, politics, etc, etc, etc - basically, everything through my eyes (hence the name of this blog, and my new solo E.P.) - into music and performance. I have really been enjoying this experience, and I hope you will too! Keep your eye on my BLOG for the release in the next few weeks!
Then came this past weekend. Both myself and Amy had blocked out our schedules, and the gingerboy was with his Dad, so we just relaxed. With our crazy lives, these types of weekends are few and far between. We took a lovely walk on the Centennial Trail (Amy brought her camera (
click here to see a few photos - the falling leaves reminded me of Grandma), took a lovely drive in the country, enjoyed gigantic bowls of PHO, had a Sally Fields movie marathon, just to name a few of our activies. It was, in a word, perfect. The slowed pace allowed me much needed time to recharge and reflect.
Monday morning now, and the work week has begun. Time to make and return a bunch of booking phonecalls, write some press releases, prepare for a retracking session with Sammy, pick up the gingerboy from school, clean the house, make dinner for the family...and realize that through the highs and the lows, the losses and the gains, the good times and the bad, everything is as it should be. That might sound trite, or it might come off as calous, but I assure you it is neither. I mean that statement in this way...life is too short, enjoy the good times, appreciate your loved ones, don't get caught up in the negative, learn from things, and live LIFE. It's just too short ot squander.
Remember kids, EVERYDAY IS A GIFT!
XXX
L.A.K.